Feminization Doesn't Always Mean Humiliation

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Empress Christine wrote: It sounds like you do love being humiliated and I'm guessing you could get quite good at sucking cock, ashplosh. Of course there is only one way to find out ;)

Give me a call sometime, I'll be happy to humiliate you!
I'll definitely try to call one day, unfourtanatly I'm a poor sissy. I'm also such a pathetic sissy that it would feel wrong of me to call a mistress until I have a small pink chastity device, so I can give them more control of my itty bitty clitty. But I can't afford one. Being a chaste sissy that is being taught to suck cock by a mistress, is a fantasy I want to make real one day. Might be nice if the cock is real too. :wink:
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ashplosh wrote:
Empress Christine wrote: It sounds like you do love being humiliated and I'm guessing you could get quite good at sucking cock, ashplosh. Of course there is only one way to find out ;)

Give me a call sometime, I'll be happy to humiliate you!
I'll definitely try to call one day, unfourtanatly I'm a poor sissy. I'm also such a pathetic sissy that it would feel wrong of me to call a mistress until I have a small pink chastity device, so I can give them more control of my itty bitty clitty. But I can't afford one. Being a chaste sissy that is being taught to suck cock by a mistress, is a fantasy I want to make real one day. Might be nice if the cock is real too. :wink:
I understand ashplosh, just call when you can and you are welcome here!
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Well, this was one of those days. I've been feeling very kinky lately so I have been wearing a bra quite a bit and that included running this morning. When I got back, my wonderful wife made a comment about wondering how many people saw my bright orange bra under my tank top. I really thought it wasn't that obvious.

Turns out that it was more the fact that it was a sleeveless tank top and whenever my arms moved a certain way, you could easily see the bright orange print through the sides. I think I tried to conceal that while I was out but you never know.

For me, the "possible" humiliation is extremely exciting. I think it is the adrenalin rush or something. But just hearing her say that made me feel so naughty. So to try and be a little safer, I just ordered a darker colored sports bra. I'm going to be one of Champion's best customers. ;)
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_Davina_ wrote:Well, this was one of those days. I've been feeling very kinky lately so I have been wearing a bra quite a bit and that included running this morning. When I got back, my wonderful wife made a comment about wondering how many people saw my bright orange bra under my tank top. I really thought it wasn't that obvious.

Turns out that it was more the fact that it was a sleeveless tank top and whenever my arms moved a certain way, you could easily see the bright orange print through the sides. I think I tried to conceal that while I was out but you never know.

For me, the "possible" humiliation is extremely exciting. I think it is the adrenalin rush or something. But just hearing her say that made me feel so naughty. So to try and be a little safer, I just ordered a darker colored sports bra. I'm going to be one of Champion's best customers. ;)
Bright orange bra... unless your tank was the same color, I'd say it was obvious Davina :) But I bet that peaking out bra strap was cute!
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Empress Christine wrote:...Bright orange bra... unless your tank was the same color, I'd say it was obvious Davina :) But I bet that peaking out bra strap was cute!
Thank you Mistress. I just think that since I worked really hard and got myself in great shape that I deserve to splurge a little. I can't help it if my feminine side wants to show off once in a while. I have always thought the exposed bra was over-the-top sexy and girls that do that make me so crazy. ;)

I have this idea that my tank tops might get a little tighter as time goes on :)
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_Davina_ wrote:
Empress Christine wrote:...Bright orange bra... unless your tank was the same color, I'd say it was obvious Davina :) But I bet that peaking out bra strap was cute!
Thank you Mistress. I just think that since I worked really hard and got myself in great shape that I deserve to splurge a little. I can't help it if my feminine side wants to show off once in a while. I have always thought the exposed bra was over-the-top sexy and girls that do that make me so crazy. ;)

I have this idea that my tank tops might get a little tighter as time goes on :)
If you keep working out and start doing some pec presses, that tank should definitely get tighter ;)
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I happened upon some porn pics that were basically all about humiliation. After looking at a few, I decided that I am very specific with the humiliation that I like.

Being "exposed" as a sissy that wears girl's undies might be about it. I don't like most of that other stuff. I think it has a lot to do with the fact that I could never make another person, especially a female, feel bad or embarrassed. I think it is important to treat people respectfully and I would hate to hurt someone's feelings.

I think humiliation might be different for everyone and my style is just one simple thing. But I can't believe how obsessed I have become with wanting to wear girly underwear as often as possible. That means panties all the time and a bra several days a week. Just my little way of pressing my own buttons I guess. I think that as long as I keep it to myself, it shouldn't be a big deal, that is, until I get caught by someone I know. ;)
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Davina if you want your sissyness to be obvious while you run, a black bra and white tank top is probably as easily revealing as you can get.
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I have that combination, I just haven't worked up the nerve to go that far. I need to slip in and out of my local neighborhood undetected....

Well, I just returned from my morning run, a couple cute girls but mostly guys these days and that doesn't do a thing for me.

I have thought about it quite a bit and to do what you suggested would be the equivalent of just running in a sports bra alone. The problem is that I am pretty well known and a respected member of the community. The cops all wave to me when I'm running and I have to do my best to keep my arms in front of me to disguise what I am wearing. People just wouldn't understand.

My wife calls me a perv but she always adds that I am the "good kind of perv". I honestly believe there is only a small fraction of one percent that might see me as a sissy that is expressing his sissy side while the remainder see me as some kind of degenerate that should probably be institutionalized. Of course that would only be to the detriment of the community at large if you consider how many charities I support and all the good that I provide. My job, without getting specific, is basically a fixer. I fix anything and everything as I am called upon to troubleshoot problems that are difficult. So it may be that some people might overlook my weirdness but for the most part, I have come to accept that my type of perversion is not and never will be accepted. Even the gay community see me as someone who mocks the whole female perspective as well. It's just the way it is.

I think, had the opportunity presented itself when I was cupcake and I ran across the right female, I could have easily been persuaded to become a sissy lady-boi that was willing to do about anything for the right Lady. But I don't regret not having that opportunity because I have been blessed with two wonderful kids that I am very proud of. And while I don't really believe in luck as much as hard work, I am very thankful for all the opportunities that I have had. I have really been blessed and as long as my worst health problem is my type-2 diabetes, I can live with that because I am what they call a diet-controlled diabetic. That was one of my main motivations for running and working out so hard.

The plus side gave me a body that might be envied by a twenty-something couch potato. Ever since high school, I have developed shoulders and arms that would make it impossible to try and look like a female. My wife has done my makeup several times and she is really good at it and with the expensive wig she bought me, from the neck up, I could probably pass easily. But one look at the bulging veins from my overly muscular and incredibly large hands would make me look like a freak even if I could disguise my arms and shoulders . That works to my advantage as far as any guys giving me a hard time because I am probably perceived as a bit intimidating when it comes to strength. But there is no way for me to ever play a female role as much as I would like to.

My fantasies have always been to have been put on a regiment of testosterone blockers and female hormones to decrease the size of many parts of me. But the best I can do is use that damn epilator and try to yank out all the course dark hair on my chest even though it leaves me with a lot of ingrown hairs I think because I wear a bra and breast forms so much. But I will always be on the outside looking in as my style of fetish play is not tolerated by anyone. That's just part of the way life is.

I think there may be a middle ground where I might wear a slightly tighter tank top that exposes my curves a little more but I would still have to be able to hide what I am wearing in certain situations. I really envy those who can get away with dressing to the point where they can walk down the street and not make people gasp and want to exile me to someplace where I am never seen. It is unfortunate in that respect but I like to look at it from the perspective that I have so much to be thankful for.
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To me it seemed liked you loved your sissyness being subtly noticeable, considering you keep posting about your walks/runs on at least 3 of these audio threads, so that is why I suggested you just go all out. I understand not wanting everyone to know about your sissy desires, I don't want people to know about mine and I don't even contribute to my community at all. But to me it's seems very illogical to even risk the exposure by making your girly clothes even slightly noticeable, if you want it to be secret like you say. I wear panties all the time and still worry about public restrooms, at least that fear makes me use toilets when I cupcake like a good gurl should.:oops:

I'm not judging I just don't get it, I would understand if you didn't want to get caught, but the thought of it was an erotic fantasy. I find the thought of having my penis removed by my master or mistress, as a punishment or a way to make me more feminine, as an erotic fantasy and I jerk off to that fantasy sometimes, but would not want that fantasy fulfilled ever. You could argue my desire for chastity is a middle ground and your slight exposure is a middle ground for you, but I could mimic having my penis removed and then take off the device to get it back to normal, while if you get seen in a bra, you cant make people forget by just taking it off.

It's possible that I am just so against being seen in public that I don't get why you want the risk. I live in Utah where many people are Mormons and judgmental so that could add to why I refuse to do anything public. I also have a furry fetish and I like some underage characters like my little cupcake, teenage mutant ninja turtles and sonic characters in both sexual and non-sexual situations. Really getting caught looking like a girl and sucking cock is not my biggest social life ruiner, when judgmental people could see my porn and say I should be shot for wanting to fuck animals and kids. Please don't judge me as a cupcake or animal fucker, I just like the design of some fictional characters that are canonically under 18 and have animal traits, and not every fictional character I like is like that. So I am also afraid that if someone see's that I like feminization it could make them try to figure out what other kinks I am into which could turn into a much bigger problem, trust me in Utah that could be a real possibility.
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I totally get where you are coming from and I understand that there is an extreme difference between what we fantasize about and how we act in reality. And I am the last person to be judgmental about what you like to dream about. I think everyone has their fantasies and very few have the guts to talk about them.

In my case, it is about pushing the boundaries a bit and I feel like what I am doing is more of a calculated risk. I wouldn't mind if a girl I didn't know and likely never would happens to see me wearing a bra with breast forms in it. I have learned to be pretty careful and have figured out ways to hold my arms to cover my chest just enough to disguise what I am wearing. I admit I can't completely hide it and if I would happen to be stopped and have to be questioned by the police, it would be impossible to hide. But people aren't looking for boobs on a guy and when I press my upper arms against my chest and keep my wrists close together, I think it makes it very difficult to see what I am doing.

When I am running, I have a paper-towel in my hand that I use to wipe the sweat off my forehead and when I get close to passing someone who I don't want to expose myself to, I will wipe my forehead in such a way that I use my very large arm to cross my chest and I think I do a good job of hiding what's underneath. So it works out that when I see a pretty girl coming the opposite direction and she is a total stranger to me, I let my arms and shoulders relax and expose my chest enough to let her see if she happens to want to look. For the most part, it is dark out and most of the time I either get eye contact or no contact at all.

I don't know what it is like to live in Utah but I know that the part of Florida where I am is very conservative and I suspect they have no tolerance at all for any kind of alternative lifestyle. But I am very fortunate to be well respected in the community and I try to convince myself that if I did get caught, they would overlook my transgressions enough to maintain my ability to contribute to the community the way I do now. Plus what I am doing isn't cupcake, immoral, or unethical in any way. It may be frowned upon by most and leave me with a bad reputation but I don't think it would cost me financially. I just get such a thrill out of the possible exposure enough to make the risk a lot of fun. And what is life if you don't have a little risk in it once in a while. ;)
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_Davina_ wrote:I just get such a thrill out of the possible exposure enough to make the risk a lot of fun. And what is life if you don't have a little risk in it once in a while. ;)
Yeah I guess risk is your spice of life, I like variety much more though. I will try just about anything once excluding the usual limits like public, cupcake and so on. I try to make the mostly cartoon porn I watch more relate able to me if that makes sense. I will try nearly everything at least once so I know how it really is, for example I have always had an oral fixation but once I tasted my cum and practiced sucking cock with a dildo, I found blowjob porn even sexier because I know how the sub in that situation feels and I know I would love to be in his or her place. I have never had a sexual partner at least not yet, but just about everything I can do alone I have done. I'm a Bi switch so yeah I don't really like to exclude anything. Done light bondage, CBT, spanking, nipple torture, cum eating, dildo sucking, anal, feminization obviously, petplay, ageplay, cupcake drinking and eating butt chocolate.

(Skip this paragraph if you don't want to hear about gross things.)
I'm not joking that is the only fetish that has became less interesting as I did it in real life, I figured the taste would be foul and I would feel the the need to puke immediately. But feces really does taste like unsweetened chocolate, I found cupcake erotic cause it seemed like the grossest thing you could do. Now I find cupcake just plain stupid because it is very dangerous to do often and not very gross, cupcake tastes worse to me, and I've eaten real dogfood during petplay sessions that also tastes worse. Never doing anything cupcake related again, not because it was so bad, but because it is unhealthy and if wanted the taste I could just go to the grocery store. :P

Not to just talk bad about religions, I'm actually christian I just don't have many hang ups, but Mormonism almost controls Utah. I would say every square mile of Utah that is largely inhabited, so excluding mountains, deserts and lakes. There are between 1 and 4 Mormon churches and they have very strict codes I know they won't even let males in unless your wearing a tuxedo, females have more options but have still have a list of do's and dont's for what they can wear. We have always been a mostly Mormon state and the church still tries to get people to join by going to houses on weekdays trying to convince non Mormons to join, and if a Mormon had a funeral it is usually in a church and the church will often have a miniature sermon during the funeral to attempt to get any non Mormons in the funeral to join the church, they even want you to sing hymns if you go to a Mormon funeral. :roll:

They are also very judgmental I lost a elementary school friend because his mom said he should not talk to me any more because my cupcake smoked cigarettes. Some Mormons have problems with the church but keep quite because there are so many Mormons It could cause a big social problem if they speak out against the church for anything, and some Mormons rat others outs so they can been seen as a good honest Mormon. I'm not on the Mormons good side because I'm not one of them but I could probably be considered worse if things got out about me like I'm homo/bi/sissy/furry. On one hand it could be nice as it would likely keep those people away from me. On the other because Mormonism is so big here, who knows what potential problems could arise for being what they would consider a freak and sexual deviant. Sorry if that was long and ranty I just wanted you to get a feel for how scary it could be to be found out here.

EDIT: I did not know sc@t would be changed to cupcake but that is pretty funny and I approve of how it changed my post.
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LOL, they have both kinds of censorship here. the auto-censors are programmed to look for certain words and change them and then, if you get out-of-hand like I did a couple times, they pounce on you. But not to worry, this is a great site and they allow a great deal.

As far as sc@t goes, I had my crazy fantasies when I was cupcake. Mostly involved a Lady who would let me give it to her good in the ass only to turn around and sit on my face and make me suck it back out of her. I still find the fantasy quite erotic. I don't really approve of sc@t mainly because it is unhealthy and I prefer things that can be a positive influence on your life. It's okay to dream but eventually, you have to live in reality.

Sounds like Utah is pretty strict but I'm sure it is a completely different situation then it is down here. Most of the south is Christian but they have a very conservative flare compared to the Roman Catholic upbringing I had. But then there is Florida. This is a place all unto its own. Kind of a melting pot of sorts but with a strong southern influence and a somewhat redneck mentality. You can get your ass kicked in a hurry down here if you don't end up worse off.
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