This audio really hits home for me because it speaks to the core fantasy that I have harbored since cupcake. It wasn't until I was an adult that I started dressing outwardly and that only came about as a Halloween thing where I found it easier to actually go out in public dressed as a girl even though it was obvious that I wasn't.
I feel that my situation is unique but not completely. I don't have a problem copping to the fact that I am somewhat gay because I don't think your stereotypical guy would enjoy wearing a bra and panties the way I do but that's also where it ends. I realized when I was very cupcake that I was very happy being born a guy simply because of the things guys can do and also the fact that cupcake nature blessed me with a very male body. Having several sisters provided me with enough insight to see that while I loved and still love everything feminine, I would never want to give up being a guy. But it's very funny how much "breast-envy" I have always had and that has to be gay to some extent. Aside from that I never paid attention to guys when I was growing up because they never had anything I didn't and for whatever reason, I just wasn't interested. But I did everything in my power to hang out with the girls when I was growing up because I was so fascinated with them.
Now that I'm older, my fantasies have become more defined and are basically centered around submitting to a female authority in such a way that I need to be punished for being "too masculine" and having naughty fantasies about doing things to girls so the proper punishment is to be put on testosterone blockers and female hormones until I grow small breasts, just big enough that I have to wear a bra. My fantasies grow all around the possible things a girl could do to punish a male even though it's obvious that none of this could ever be realistic. You just can't do the things I fantasize about but that doesn't mean it isn't a lot of fun to play "make-believe." Just like we did when we were kids and played cowboys and Indians or doctor and nurse, I think it is just plain fun to make believe that a Mistress secretly feeds me a concoction just like this audio demonstrates. I like to imagine that I am crying and begging to maintain my masculinity while my Mistress slowly and deliberately takes it away from me. But my version also includes that I am never "converted" to a point that I could disguise myself as a female because I would see that as an "easy way out" but instead, deliberately cupcake to maintain an obvious male presence while I am cupcake to wear girly clothes and do whatever my Mistress finds amusing while I am embarrassed to the maximum degree.
I find it really exciting to be paraded in front of a bunch of females, maybe like a lingerie party, and made to expose my sexual excitement which betrays any vocal opposition I might have to dressing that way. And I think the incredible Ladies here have a great way of hitting the nail on the head when it comes to tickling those particular fantasies. For example <
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