I don't know if there's a favorite part. I like the moment I put on a satin nightie after I've have my bath and I'm so smooth. I like prancing about the house in a nightie. I like picking out something pretty to wear before I leave the house, putting on my makeup, grabbing my purse and heading out the door. I like painting my finger nails and toe nails a pretty color and growing my finger nails long. I like any time a woman engages me in conversation when I'm out there. Sometimes she compliments my nails or I compliment hers. Sometimes, it's a smile on a woman's face as I walk by. That may be a "what a sissy" smile or a "how cute" smile, but it comes from a friendly place.
I like being somebody who can offer other sissies advice, support or just kind words, because I know the struggle. I love my sisters, GG, trans and sissy. Any woman who accepts us is to be appreciated and respected. And girls like me need the support from each other, so I like to give it when I can. And, it's who I am, more t-girl than sissy, but maybe not trans enough. And I do get naughty...
It could be a naughty story I'm writing or a thought in my head when I wake up, and suddenly I'm rubbing my clitty through my panties. No cum for Candi, just edging. Sometimes just thinking about a woman letting me go down on her and satisfy her with my tongue gets me excited. Probably more so for never having the honor yet. The idea of falling in love with a woman who would love me for me.
Never felt much for a man, but I have sucked cock. I could have done it recently if not for my desire to be with a woman holding me back. But I do like the idea that guys see me as attractive enough to want to feed me their cocks. A few have wanted more, though I've never given in to that. My biggest problem is the lack of a connection with the guy. I'd give my body over completely to the one I loved or felt a deep attraction to. Though I fantasize about being taken by a man, I haven't done it yet. If I met the right guy, that might change...
This is because of one of the things I don't like about being a sissy. Because, I love so much about being who I am, and yet it's at odds with what women really want. If they are looking for femininity, they will seek a woman. Otherwise, they will seek a real man. To win a woman's heart, I think I may have to stop all of my herbal treatments and the clothes and present as a man. Even then, I was never much of a man, but that would be my best chance. Could I give it all up for a woman... No. Why? Because if she loves me, she would want me to be happy, just as I would want that for her. Am I prepared for her response?
What if she accepts me and even brings more of my femininity out of me, but she needs to be with a man? Not because she doesn't love me, but because she has needs too? I mean, I would try by best, but what if its not good enough? What if she has locked me in chastity too? What if this would make her happy? Could I do that for her?
Oh dear, I rambled off topic. Well, it relates to being a sissy at least. As always, I loved your audio, Empress Christine