BraLover wrote: ↑Wed Feb 22, 2017 7:18 am
I told her I've been getting waxed by same girl at different salon for 15 years and she said she could wax me and do massages under one place. With other girl I couldn't get consistent schedule with her as last few waxings were 10-12 weeks apart and that's way to long to go in between waxings. She has me on strict waxing schedule 5-6 weeks no more then that. Coffee shop is going to happen as I want to get out of liquor business. With Sunday sales most likely going to happen and expanded weeknight hours I don't want to do this. Coffee shop with be closed on Sunday's/7/8pm week nights. Better hours and I'll be treated better with credit & respect from her unlike liquor store. I did tell her truth when I came out of closet that I don't like guys & not gay as I said I want women to take me shopping/dress me as girl for fun. I said I would've been better off born as girl with sisters and not brothers and she agreed.
Picture this. You are wearing women clothes, bright red lipstick, made up and wandering round the mall talking and thinking girl things... You smell like a woman too and are wearing perfume that is designed to grab a guy's attention. I'd not check out his bulge if I were you.
Inner girl: "Is he well hung?" / Pete: "I must not look!"
If masseuse gave you permission to be on your knees, privately, telling you it's what girls do, I think you'd be tempted as you seem to associate your best relationships with women with dressing and acting girlie.
I also wonder if you like humiliating your male side. Perhaps you don't feel your male side is successful enough and deserves it?
1. Why did you start waxing?
2. Why do you like dressing in female clothes and products? For example, I have worn panties a while and not really sure why. I mean it's a kick, feels nice, bit naughty but mens stuff can feel nice too and panties don't help a guy's image. I'm not pretending to look like a girl, I don't want a boyfriend (but have wondered if curious).
I'm not sure what your need is? Do you get a kick being seen as a sissy by women? Do you like buying female things wearing red lipstick and looking sissy? Or is it you want to become a girl and live as one properly, your true gender?
Is it for a kick, a girl telling you to kick/bit embarrassment kick?
You say you don't dress up to pull a hot guy. Why isn't masseuse dating you as a male, would she reject you if you chose to live as a male? It's hard to word right, but why do you want to own and wear fem things? What is this giving you?
Is this a fantasy being ticked off? That makes sense. But then, you seem to want being made to. It must fulfil some need. What need is being a sissy achieving? Is it to do with a memory?
I think masseuse needs corrupting. Ms Cindy could tell you a lovely story about the masseuse who would massage and wax her pretty sissy, in panties and bra. Nice lotions, smells, lipstick (she shopped for). Get her looking pretty, sexy and attractive.
Nice short skirt etc (fashion isn't my strong point).
Then after these Friday massage sessions, she puts on her strappon and orders her sissy to get some practice... Wouldn't that be nice Petricia?
You could learn how to be a really good girl... Wouldn't it be nice to be praised for doing a good blowjob?
I'm willing to bet some strappons may even stimulate the vagina. I suspect Empress Delia will know...
When's her birthday?
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I really hope during your girl shopping trip, masseuse says things to you like, "You look really hot, girl!" or "You could pull...". But I think she is too nice. Salesgirl: "Oh look, how cute, she's got a wet patch in her panties!" (cupcake applies mascara).
Final thought: Hot pretty girls do not necessarily have to like felatio. They might simply have a desire to please and feel sexy!