EmpressSimone wrote: ↑Sun Mar 26, 2017 4:53 am
Thank you Jamie Michelle. Sorry it took so long to do.
Sweet dreams!!
I'm also sorry that it has taken me so long to give my fuller reply to your truly and extremely wonderful audio, Empress Simone! I thank you so much for it!
I thought that I would have a lot of words to say regarding this topic of true love, and perhaps I will add more in the future. But for the present time I'll say this:
One of the most satisfying aspects when I was living with Len as basically his sissy-wife was hugging him and kissing him, and holding his hand. But also having a deep friend who I could joke with and laugh with.
And I did not take that for granted at the time. Indeed, far from it. Some people always seem to be chasing the existential dragon, to use a modified junkie term. They suffer from what I call "grass-is-greenerism". Even if they already have a faithful partner who loves them and is good to them, their eye and their mind are wondering--they're fantasizing about what it would be like to be with this other person, or to do this or that with someone else.
Whereas I actually felt complete and satisfied. It was so soul-comforting to me snuggling with Len, with the idea in my mind that he would always be there for me, and I for him. Some of the most rich and rewarding experiences being with him were also some of the simplest. One of the most reassuring and pleasurable experiences was holding his hand every night, saying my bedtime prayers in my head, and then drifting off to sleep while still holding his hand.
Even at the time, I felt truly blessed to experience these simple comforts. I felt complete. I wasn't looking for something more--at least not within the realm of this mortal coil.
And as you indicate in your audio, cooking nice meals for us made me feel very nice. Len lost 50 pounds with me cooking low-carbohydrate meals for him. Sadly, since he left me, he has regained over half that weight.
Grocery shopping was a pleasure for me, thinking about the nice meals that I would make for my man. And maintaining our apartment also made me feel good.
As you state in your recording, with me interested in finding a true soul-connection with another, penis size isn't so important. Indeed, even gender doesn't seem so important to me these days. I can even see loving a genetic woman, much as how Gigi Gorgeous (previously Gregory Gorgeous;
https://youtube.com/user/GregoryGORGEOUS ) started off dating men but is now in love with a genetic lady.
When Len left me it was so devastating to me. It was so soul-crushing. It felt like my body was being torn in two, through my chest.
It would be nice to find someone to settle-down with. That's my dream in life, to find someone to have and to hold. Someone to hug, and to joke with. Maybe someday that will happen for me.